#242 - GD-C Version of CDG

Right this moment, a very heavy heart for some obvious reasons.... And to top it all off, I woke up today with new reckonings... including Uriel, 31 Sep, Google Doodle, News, CIA/FBI's research plus other things.....

So I created this and I didn't think much of it, I just go with the flow and ended up with this.

Recently I lost all my money too, and then phone broken, wallet stolen, a lot of things on top of already stressful me... then I hear the news for my mother.... and other pressures..... then seeing love ones, friends, been also dealing with mission impossibles... I am just numb.

I am not sure how many people actually go through this, as I hardly ever advertise it anyway. So if anyone wants to support this - here is the link. Money can't buy me, or happiness, but definitely helps in a weird situation like this. Do I not fit in the box? Indeed I don't, but I am still in it to help it right? How much can I endure? How long? And from where to where? For what reasons? When one doesn't want to hear what I have to say, then do I really belong or are there other reasons? At least I am still alive on this particular day, but I too experienced a close call yesterday.... didn't I? The sudden drop, feeling, only luckily be able to defend it.... But I can't do this forever with what I have got, and then put me into further...... with no recovery of the past.... let's hope the reality isn't that bad... only time can tell.