#240 - Good Enough / When I am Gone / Dark Thought
- CT
- Mar 20
- 2 min read
I've never understood this until today... and it matched how I have been expected and what happened today, sort of sealed the deal for me. I lost my wallet... and nowhere could be found, I think it has been stolen - as I used it in the past 12 hours. To be honest, it wasn't something particularly worrying, it is just annoying that's all, coupled with all those weights on me, I indeed had enough of it... all.
If it does impact the destiny, at least the war is no longer needed. Let's just end it right here and set it in motion. If it doesn't - then I too did the right thing. Win-Win situation, I don't lose.
What is the ante - exactly what all have been doing, and this time, I gave up myself, so that you will be right. An extra chance, to end this endless loop.
This one - pretty much sums it up for me.
I think that at least gives a chance for others. A victim will be gone, which ironically, makes me not the victim... another one, gains some peace/freedom, and I'm sure, some will somehow enjoy that too, save them to plan for dealing with miseries....
In this day, it covers both lovers/best friends/soulmates - it doesn't matter what relationship it seems like, or defined as such, it pretty much covers it all.
If that is the case, why not right?
But again, it is never really up to me, I have escape death a few times, but this time, many signs that I didn't say......
Hopefully, that is enough to save you....and you and you... if it doesn't, it just make the prolonged suffering a bit shorter. Just like usual, it is my mum and me pays the price.
Since this life was setup that way, I think of it as a good ending for me.
#20 - Too close now... I think it has passed the point of no return. Hence this morning, I am sorry for you too, I know how you must be feeling deep down, probably as heavy as me. But now, it will be lighter as time goes by, because........
PS: 240 means something too right, for which I don't need to explain now, because either way, won't be there.... and you can blame it on me this time... It isn't sadness that I am totally feeling, there is a smile somehow, maybe it is just meant to be, for given you all, what is needed....
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