So What

Did you say you were going to pick me up when I am down?

Did you say we were going to meet?

Or sorry - must be someone else instead. I just ended up alone again, dealing with the shit alone. I am also sick of it, hopefully not too long now.

Did you get my last $20 dollars? For what reason?

Can you imagine that while I am suffering from all this, the money that is meant to keep me going for a day more or two, somehow ended up for someone else? Do I have a lot to give? No, so why ask me? Did I not give enough? Or did you hear it somewhere that I have money to give? If this is the case why?

My limit has already been breached. Right now - I couldn't even explain how angry I am. I guess how ever much the love, how ever much the pain.... Full of emotions, and no where to go. Normally, it is not the end of the world feeling like this, but the fact that I can't even talk to anyone, and there isn't anybody left..... made it even worse than before. I am trying to hard not to explode - but I am now down to my last couple of cigarettes, last couple drop of drinks, and out of the rest..... not helping - soon I won't be able to hold much longer... just like all the shields / swords all shattered in front of me.

EXPLOSION X 7 +++ AND MORE!!!!