Have you ever thought "Sunday" was actually my Thursday Night Friday Morning?
Right now, there are too many "stories" I realised just in one day, all have some truth to it, but it may not be what you have understood, thought you understood, or believed in, or even seeing with your own eyes due to various reasons.
As I no long have my laptop right now, posting this will not be easy. So I have to keep everything short and hopefully those little words may ended up giving some other meanings for you in the end and a proper explanation to what it really did mean.
I post this song today because it is what I went through yesterday morning, till the morning hours (now Saturday early morning), I wonder what you will see on Sunday... and whether it reflects just that...
For the person I met briefly, it reminds of where he is at, what his talent is, something people may overlook his true values. An ordinary person would have probably stopped seeing the good within because the outside looks different...
For me, it's realising that my purpose itself, and being able to find the reasons within that combined all pressures from different angles and to reveal something that may have caused great confusions to all. I don't know if I have enough time to write it all, as this is just a complicated matter, within a complex environment, through different ends of understandings & beliefs. Does that sound familiar?
Another reason is that now I finally got a glimpse of potentially "why" those strange things are happening around me. Just like, the perfect person I met, I been waiting for him for a very long time, the one that I have feelings to, the one that I can actually connect, is hardly in my life, a Sunday there in the middle of the month, a brief Friday later that Sunday moment to visit him elsewhere and not seeing him..... and only God would know the true reasons, and a part of me feels when the "invisible" war is going on in my life, around me, even if it was for "good", and somehow the "wrong" side ended up as being right in a way.
Life can be very confusing, when you look at things in a normal way, without the full understandings. But it is also how it was designed in this way, so everyone can see it in their own way and work it out through time, their own experiences and how much they want to understand...
I've found when time is short, and when there was a lot of cover. The bullets firing shots were the best solution, yes that's commercial speaking, bulletpoints, haha. But I have a feeling somewhere, somehow, it would have associated with guns somewhere along the line, and misunderstood the meaning deeply, after all, what would be your first thought when someone mention bullets? And you know that instantly... and a lot of time, once that image is up in your head, it is hard not to pull up your defence, if gun is mentioned, right? Then it leads to no time to hear it, end of discussion moment... Does it sound familiar? Then hates can spread, because of he said bullet, you may have even seen it, so that's the "truth", so then the other ended up spreading something that may not be the "whole truth", but then again, who would be there to ask for that, without knowing who can reveal it in the first place.... that's the Sunday, that's the Friday. They are the same in some events in my life, at least it is not an illogical, without reasoning, but ended up I had to put this out there, because it is.
PS: I feel like my life has been spreading, dishing out and must be unloved due to being loved. Those I love had to deal with extra stress, because of various reasons, and I question how I can love them best if hurting myself is the best way for them?! How far do I go? If I'm selfish enough, I want to let go of myself too... because HE wants me to go too after seeing what's left of me, if I'm less selfish, I want to go because of them, or else I will hurt myself until I'm gone. They had to do that or experience that because they know it's "right", then what choice do I have except for letting go?
It's not the "drug" that harms, but the unavailability and the power of being to "control the market", and made other do things, because it is also another human exercising their power and abused "it"... it doesn't even need to be drug, it can be money, sex and everything else that someone love. Once you see the meaning of this, you may realise yeah I kinda heard that before, knew the literal meaning, but never thought of it that way.
When drug got a bad name, so did junkies. What does a good junkie means to you? If you be someone looking so normal, next to you and you wouldn't even notice it on the street. But being called a junkie just because.
What the other side is doing? Purposely making it very visible, since it is the truth right? At times, I'm sure some also tried to speed up the process by making it extra out there. Really no different than election times, where both sides are just throwing dirts on each other... isn't that funny we somehow accept the fact that dirt is enough to discredit someone because dirt was played on that person?
What you believe is right, when it is translated correctly and through understandings. But what will happen if you got caught in a loop, because of misunderstandings? You go back to the origin, the root cause, and look for guidance. It's like a replay of events, so you can make sense of it, it's a tough journey, because throughout the path, you will have to discredit yourself and what you once believed too, but that is because you believe and still have faith in it.
To me, I know how I feel, I know what has been "happened" in my life, I am almost certain that what I saw couldnt be the whole truth, and thus keeping an open mind, so I'm prepared if the surprise ever happens. When that happens, at least I am more willing and have a better chance to see the "good" within "bad". Why all theory and no science hey?
How about penicillin? Without deaths, without bacteria, without going into the "bad" side, without understanding it, without chance, something good may never be discovered. It is not without its problem, but with the correct usage, it is still on the good side.
It's Sunday, It's also Innocence & Sadness. Go back to the original to see the truth.
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