There are many signs in my life, some I think were "man made", which I can put them aside for the time being. But when it comes to the real ones, I know those couldn't have been made, or else, the whole universe and time space have to be in it somehow.
So this video, covered some of a few things that have been happened in my life, covering the past 72 hours or so, I won't go into the specific. But the feelings are mixed, through the whole spectrum from the bottom to the top. I find the saddest moment, in the happiest time and vice versa. Do you know what it feels like? It's like being with someone you know it's right, and both can enjoy the time, the occurrence was so rare to start with, only to be ruined by another thing or things. It is like seeing someone that you love dearly, only to find he is hurt or hurting. What's worst? What if seeing the love one also contributed their pain, what the fuck do you do then? Stop seeing? Or endure the pain when you/the other person/both do?
I can't remembered how many times, I cried in silence, sometimes for myself, sometimes for others, maybe sometimes, for spirits too.... As if people will ever know what others are going through, without asking them. Because when if you asked, a lot of times, they may choose to say nothing, for whatever reasons. That's why for people who can genuinely feel, they often carry burdens from others on their own shoulders. This post is probably something very relevant from that point of view.
You have no idea how much mental pressure a person has to feel to want to die willingly… don't come here to judge me. If someone asks for help, all you can do is bully. But when they do something, it is their fault. Have you learnt anything in life except victim-blaming?
This is what it mentioned in the post. Some goodbye, you may not know the reason. Some goodbye may not be necessary, if only things were less complicated to start with. Don't make things too late when... This is how you save a life, or another one & more in the future.
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