Lately I have been really tired. It is like no matter what I do, things became extra and extreme hard. So as I got my feeling / sign / intuition etc, I took less time to "explore" it. This song sort of resonate with me right this moment because I too feel like I am fading. How? Not sure, but I just keep asking myself, do I actually matter in this world? If I did, how could things unfolded like this? If I didn't, why can't life just let me go and be fair? I am not saying life is "fair"...it is like "normal", "nightmare", "hell" difficulty - only then be given ..... extra hell difficulty in life. Then everyone from "normal"...... or any other difficulties judge upon you and made you feel like something even less.
Anyway....
This one sort of gave me a feeling of......this song from M, BP or could it be this Bow? This weekend? Some heard the gun (Olympic)! More importantly - yesterday I thought myself....is Gamma ray coming? Like GRB 221009A? Or something like GRB 080916C?
Just like usual, my writing seems to always provide additional meaning, something useful for those who look for it. It is like an extra gift within a gift itself... and that also hold true to myself too. At times, I re-read my post and only to find out more meaning than what I originally wrote down... I guess this is a "why not" moment, something that is there if you want it, it is meaningful to those at the right time..... But I do remember for some, if they don't understand it, all they can see is bad (like BP)... The good news is that I did not "wish" that thing to happen, I can be asleep, the things will still happen like those above... if that is the case, would "advance notice" becomes a present in itself?
At least before I go.... I know I am never bad.... feels like the original got removed.... weird huh? .................for this song though, the original one is here.
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